As I sit here procrastinating about studying, I started thinking about my workout tomorrow. I have been slowly running again since my Achilles surgery. I never WANT to run. I despise running. I run 1) because the Army makes me and 2) because it makes me feel good. Research has proven that exercise raises endorphins that cause better moods. No matter how hurt I am or how much I’m throwing up after a workout, I am always in a better mood when finished. When I’m angry I lift weights. I see a direct correlation between how angry I am and how much weight I can lift. Moral of the story is, when you need to get away and calm down or perk up turn to exercise. Once you get into a rhythm you will see that alcohol impairs gains and you will have another reason to not drink.


The III %

I do not claim a political party, but if I did I guess I would identify with the Tea Party because of my firm beliefs on the Constitution and separation of federal and state. I am not a zealot though. I am a realist. We are a melting pot of beliefs, religions, races, and backgrounds. No one belief is going to pull us out of our deficit and make America a better place. There will always be conflict and strife. Too many people are jumping on the bandwagon, claiming to be a patriot. What most can’t seem to realize is even if we do have a regime change, there will still be a large percentage that are still unhappy. There will always be a large group of Americans that are against those in charge no matter what political party they are. It is natural for those not in control to want to rebel against those that are in control.

It is believed that during the American Revolution the active fighting forces against the King’s Army were only 3%. People now are trying to identify with this calling themselves the III %’s. The III%’s have a concept of starting their own community called “The Citadel Project”. They believe they can live in a fortified community in preparation for when “shit hits the fan”. They state “The Citadel will provide a place to live “a free/freer life in Idaho (or elsewhere in the American Redoubt) amongst the current strong, self-reliant and Liberty-loving residents of the region.” (http://sipseystreetirregulars.blogspot.com/). By doing this they are alienating themselves from the rest of America. What if a family can not afford to move to this community? Then they don’t deserve to live there? Where is the equality in that?

Separating yourself from the problem will not fix it. Starting a community like this will only make them look not only like a bunch of conspiracy freaks, but as enemies of the government. Because of the growing popularity of this movement they are bound to have people join them with less than honorable motives. Criminals will use this as an escape from prosecution, claiming they are being persecuted for being a Patriot. The founders of this town are starting the funding using money made from their firearms company.A great way to get your company’s name out there and make more profit is to align yourself with a political cause. Could this just be a way for these so-called “Patriots” to make a buck?

While I understand the intentions of this movement, I do not feel it will end up being for the good of the people. But these are just my opinions. As an American I am entitled to them. If you feel different, feel free to exercise your 1st amendment rights and let me know. If you try to infringe on mine remember I am a huge supporter of the Second Amendment

It’s Been a While

Sorry I haven’t written. I’ve been busy back at work. Things have been hard. My wife had told me last week that she was pregnant. We were not trying nor did we expect it. At first I was shocked. Slowly I became excited at the thought of having another kid. We told the kids and they seem excited. Well that was last week. This week has not been good.Unfortunetly we found out she lost the baby. It hurts seeing her so disraght over it. I cannot do much but try to comfort her. I’m not even sure how I am taking it. I have been sleeping alot and I think thats why. I cannot seem to get enough sleep, which is the complete opposite of me normally.On top of this, it seems that my PTSD is making a comeback. I am etremely agitated and snap at the slightest thing. I cannot wait till we can move to Alaska and get away from this place. This job has brought out the worst in me. Luckily my wife has made the best of it and keeps herself busy. Normally I hate how much time she spends helping the family readiness group but now I think it will help her cope. Well thats what has been going on. I want to try and keep up with the blog but sometimes life just comes first.

Memorial Day

Today is a day to remember the fallen Soldiers and those still serving. Please take a moment today to reflect on how a Soldier has impacted your life. They do not need you to thank them. We do not serve for praises. We serve to remember those who have been lost. If you have a loved one who is a Veteran and they seem sad or distant today, do not question why. Many veterans will be reflecting today on friends lost. All we ask is that you remember those that have paid the ultimate price in defense or our nation. I do ask you to please keep an eye on your Veterans. Some might blame themselves or wonder why they are still alive and not a friend. We have lost too many Soldiers not only on the battlefield but also to PTSD. So I ask you, no I beg you to please be aware of not only the visible scars but the invisible ones. Vincit Amor Patriae!

Back to work

I haven’t been on much. I am back to work after 6 weeks off for recovery from my achilles surgery. I have been put in a different position so hopefully it will be better. Although I am not sure how much I enjoy tons of paperwork and being at a desk all day.

Still haven’t drank. Luckily the whole not drinking thing has been pretty easy for me. I don’t know how I would handle it if I had cravings and withdrawl.

My meds seem to be working pretty good now. I don’t seem to be as stressed and pissed off all the time. I stay pretty busy so that helps. I have been extremely tired the past couple days though. For once I didn’t have to use a sleep med to get to sleep, but I still woke up very tired.

60 days sober

I’ve made it past 60 days sober. I have only had one occasion that I really wanted a drink. I went to a wedding reception with my wife and every table had champaign and there was an open bar. It wouldn’t have been too bad but I do not like large groups of people. Normally when I am around a large group I drink and stay moving. I got through it though. It was the first time I was in a situation with everyone drinking since I stopped. I just sucked it up.